I did a little cleaning on my site. I decided I have spent too much of my life obsessing over medical stuff – especially when it pertains to me. I took on an identity that was not the identity my God had for me. It consisted of all my post-cancer fears, all my medical labels, times of good interchanges with medical professionals – and bad ones.
Recently I read a book that has nothing to do with medicine, but I took away from it this quote: “Every person in one way or another needs to exchange a false identity he or she has created for an identity in the risen Christ. Saying we’re a disciple and a [fill in the blank] creates a big problem. At the level of our fundamental identity, we are a disciple only.” Caleb Koltenbach
What this author has discovered, and what I’m discovering is that my identity is in the Lord and what he’s making me into. I am not mentally ill and a Disciple of Christ. I’m not any of my illnesses. I am separate from anything the world would like to label me. My identity is in Christ – His Disciple. That’s the only thing I am.
After beginning to realize this, I find myself asking why I’m hanging on to these false identities. I realized there is a new road to experience that is free from those false identity’s shackles. So I’m trying to mindfully refocus on who Christ made me to be.
I’m not talking about something like multiple personalities. There will always be me, just Kari. Inside me there is not living Carmon, Karly, or Doug. I am Kari and my personality will always be that. What I am talking about is identity, not personality. Identity is what you, the personality, chooses to identity as – through action, culture, and beliefs.
I choose to identify as Christ’s Disciple and weed out any false identity wanting to displace who that is and is becoming in me. What’s your identity?